dilemma..

dilemma dilemma.
.if u know what i mean..

dance! dance! dance!
27-28 februari 2009

Peter Cetera (papa's all time favourite)
1st March 2009

Mr J *ouuhhhh*
4th march 2009

sunburst KL 2009
21 March 2009

na pagi semua...
waaaaaaa...

bella luna~

a song by Mr. Mraz..Bella Luna..
im so crazy over this song..heard it in epul's car d other day..
as i love just with the guitar!.and the voice!
its so soothing..breath-taking..romantic..ouhhhh~absolutely beautiful..
makes you think of soft sea breeze at night
makes you think of smiling eyes..
makes you think of unspoken yet understood words..wow!
honestly i get the chill listening to it..kinda alluring in anyway..

suddenly..rase mcm na gi d performance plak this march!
yang...na bday pwezie..pegii konsert jason mraz ble..?
heheheheheh!
here it out~ *its autoplayed..wait for a few seconds ea..*

Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closing one
A chosen child in golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

The cosmic fish they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constellations
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let's take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Do do do do do

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Of crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger, of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance yet, but all them may lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna
My beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh

*singing to it..*

what a monday ..

bangon lambat..
sampai kajang around 7.20..shit!~ d trains gonna be off anytime soon..

berlari...maen parking je..d mamak terjerit2 panggil..meybe he was about to say..'hey no parking'..
well..bukan ade sign pon..says 'no parking'..duhh~

i ran thru d gates...
zupp..zuupp...
masok2 je..d door was like..'tiiittt..tiittt'
fiuhh.! sempat.!

but..just beberapa minit train bergerak..tbe2 it stops in the middle of the railway..
and people from the front car..starting to occupy ours..
and a chinese lady asked..'what happen?'
'ouhh we smell somthing..n suddenly theres somekind of smoke..'
sme mcm agak risau2..
all i ever think of was..'shit!..im gonna be late..like super!'..
i was not even half way there..and its ordy nearly 8..urghhh!
then an annoucement..'train akan tamat perkhidmatan di stesen serdang.penumpang di minta turun..blablabla...'..
adoyyy~...serdang..is the starting point the train jadi macam sardin..sekali ramai masok..
just imagine..sme turun kat situ..adoyy~.
a train came..tapi mmg tak dapat masok..tu pon da macam ape je sme naek..
so i biar je..tak suke tolak2..rempuh..but its already nearly 8.30!
called papa..papa said amek cab je..sekali..baru nak naek cab..
ade train buruk lame tu ..(intercity)..ntah dr johor ke mane...'gedek..gedek..'
stopped..and a traffic officer was yelling..'KL Sentral sahaja'
so i hop in..n off to work..
arrived...9.14!
waaaaa~..tp bos da tao da..informed her earlier..

ouhh..public transport di malaysia..~..haihh~

geez..what a monday to start...~

but later dat day..went pretty fine..

had dinner with the 2 chipmunks @ beranang..
epul n totok..
den went back home..

i left my room was totally huru hara dat morning..
suda extremely lambat..
so i didnt make up my bed..
lampu sme tak tutup..
even d cupboard door pon terbukak..
towel ntah mane2..
make up stuff was everywhere..
tp..
as i got home..
tadaaaa~

da siap tukar bedsheet!
weeee~
thank u ma!
and mama pandai..letak red teddy azmi bagi..kat tengah2 bantal..
wehhehhee!

=)).

tiny lil place call..home!

and dats where we are..!

ouh..my house look so tiny..
wonder if mama is too..
hahahah~

oh noo!

oo oohh..
tesco semenyih is in bussiness..
habislaa..

ade macam2..
old town white coffee..
5 dulang cafe..
just muffins.
bata.
kings confectionary
and a whole lot more..,.

just opposite my place..
from semenyih..traffic lite..left turn is the tesco..right turn..is my place!

so pa.. kalaw ktorng ilang..
u know where to find us..

heee~

tea time party..

saturday was azmi family day to me..
sunday was my family day..hahaha...~

mama n maktok made mee hun putih and bubur kacang..
aunty ah made laksa johore
aunty mimi made kueh seri muke..

saye..buwat air je..
not!

saye ta buwat ape2 pon..
muaahahah!

sme came over to my house..
and had our garden tea-time party..
yeeehaa!
the weather was soo nice..
redup and windy..
weeeeee~

laksa meehun bubur kacang kueh

yaya yiyi yoyot n papa pipi popot

oi org atas...hahahah~..bile la na buat a proper tangga..

table

uncle nik and aunty mimi

uncle achet yg kenyang...woops!

=)

the lil project~

remember the lil project i was all over in fb?
some clues..ges u guys can figure it out.
hehhehhe~

i got 4 days to siap kan before 23rd..

cepat2 siapkan..hehehhe!

il update how it turns out to be later heh..

=)

-end-

hahaha~

as i expected.

the boom!

meletup sme benda..

anyway..

say tak na bitching in d blog..
but i was not the one who started the whole wide world story in blog in d first place..im totally positive about that..*checked d posting*
but in the other hand..instead bitching in d fb..hentam org belakang2..
sgtla mature n tak bitchy..

if u think i sibuk and dengki..funny..
blame d people that told us..bukan ktorng pegi sibok2 tny..'eh dia ape citer a?'
tak de kuase..

sumthng like..jgn pura2 happy..making a fool of myself..
mmg ktorng happy..
as i say..theres up and down..gadoo..sape kate tak gado..mane ade relationship tak gado.
azmi mmg marah2..biasela..i oso marah..lagi teruk kot..kan?..kalaw i salah..marahla..kalaw die salah..i marah..tak tao sape salah pon..marah..haha..but honestly..emi tak penah tempik tempelak like how my exbf did to me before..thank god for that..
tarik muke..merengus2..bebel...
biase la..but we make up..and date macam org baru bercinta..kan?kan?
itu biase..alah ktorng baru lagi..still learning and developing..
like i said..i dont know what lies in future for us..but we selalu hope n tell each other that how we want this to be a happy ending..
but plus..
pictures tells it all..dont u think so?better keep scrolling down until the end of the page..heheh~
but i tink..it may sound a lil bit..jealous..m i right?

azmi said to me..'yang..api tak kan nak lawan ngan api..biar je org nak panggil awk ape ke..sukatila..'

so..
sukati la wakk..

as far as im concern..i wasnt being harsh in anyway..kalaw sendri terasa..tak tao la..and i wasnt even calling names or whutsoever not..but i noe u guys have been calling me names..rite? well..obviously..

by the time..i blurted out abt it..the relationship was oredy done with...yes..maybe it make things from bad to worst..my mistake..but come to think of it..it wasnt the main issue..rite?

like azmi said..kalaw tak betol..kenape nak melatah..we heard from people..just tell us off..'what u guys heard is wrong..' habes cerite...baek2 kte niat elok..terus jd benci..hmm~

lagi disheartening is..those thats not even in d pics pon..called me al kind of names..but i totally understand..coz dey r much more closer to her..if i was in d situation pun i probably terase tempiasnye..

so dis im saying..
i dont..no..we dont want to even know abt anything to do with whoever it may concern..
people tak perlu cite2 kat ktorng..coz..we dont want to even listen..n hear abt it..
keep it to urself..
coz now its lik a wake-up call..that..we make troubles out if this..to ourselves..
so ya..if u guys na call me names..go ahead..
if u want to buang i jauh2 pon..not a so call friend anymore..its ok.
im done with this.

tata. =)

putting my foot down.

heyya peeps!
been quite sometime since my last update..
been bz..n just not in d mood..
so!
i have a row of new posts..and let me have u guys start with this one..
here me out.

if u happen to have a friend.
and somehow u knew that somethings not good has been going behind their back.
what would u do?
-keeping quiet, hold on into it.and let whatever happen to be..?
-or u tell em off directly?for their good sake.

well, i was in the situation.. we are in a circle of friends.her friends happen to be my friends.(atleast that was my thot).but how close the 'friendship' was..well let just say it base on individual interpretation.

i for one knew about 'the behind-scene stories' took pity.
but y?

i had been thru this like a zillion times. with my previous relationships. been hurt really badly..really really badly for all kind of reasons..cheated.betrayed.rejected.even humiliated...everything..name it.

my first thought was..putting myself in her shoes..i pon perempuan..so..i totally understand how it would probably feels like. despite of what happen in the past.
ive literally 'seen' how much love and effort she put for him. believe me..been there done that. loving with all our hearts, putting effort to make the relationship works..but at the end of the day. i was the one being hurt like crazy..not worth it..at all..
same goes here.i feel.. it really hurt being hurt. so i was totally kesian and oso marah for the situation as i tink she shouldnt have to face all this.

honestly. i wasnt having any intention or plan to tell her off. i knew it for quite somtime.but i stayed quiet. but somehow..i admit. i accidently blurt it out from my chest..not to her..but to a friend of ours..

i wasnt meant on any harm..even more harm..its not my intention of ruining any friendship. relationship and even making things from bad to worst. honestly. i dont.

but somehow it is. without my expectation. i admit im wrong for blurted out. but.
what i heard..is what i blurt.
believe or not to believe..its up to em.

all im saying is..even me myself..when kte buwat salah..somtimes..when people ask straight to our face..we just dont want to admit it..and that is that.

ive been putting alot of thinking..well actually deciding to even date someone...i really consider of what my 'friends' would say or think..but in this case...despite of the circle of friends..and my intention has been taken badly..so as the title says..
i put my foot down..and say it here:

ive turn to my 2nd thot..which is..'I couldnt care less anymore'
as i said befo...it really hurt being hurt..
but!
if u ONCE hurt someone REALLY bad..
then!
it suits u well!..REALLY well!!

what goes around..comes around..
what goes up!..must come down!
its karma.

i was been fired..from every corner..putting blame onto me..i said a zillion sorries..
but..now..i dont care whatever people want to think or say.about me..hate me..or calling me names..or whatsoever not..
coz i know myself..and only god knows my intention was..

i never involve in this coz it wasnt my bussiness..at least at first!....but now..my advice is..(as im in this kind of situation oso)..if u dont want..ur previous relationships to bother u or whatsoever..pay off any 'DEBTS' or anything..and get over with..trust me..it works..!..if ta na..well maybe he can let u be..but answer it later days..not to him...to Him...and honestly..its kinda funny coz obviously, insecure wasnt in my dictionary..regardless u are in it or not..coz i think u can see why..

as far as im concern..
my relationship with him is happy, fun and joy.
it helps when we get the blessing from the FAMILY.
his family welcome me with warm and opened arms. and so do mine.
we now have 2 mamas, 1 abah, 1 papa, 1 kakak, 1 abang, 2 lil brothers. and a lil sister..
we support each other,
we motivate each other,
we appreciate each other,
we BE with each other through thick n thin.
of coz there's up and down. gadoo..sape kate tak gado..
but we overcome them..its part and parcel of relationship right..
only that we discover our mistakes, weeknesses, and try what ever it takes to strenghten and make the relationship works well.

i dont know what lies for us ahead..
but everday i hope n pray to god..
that it would have a happy ending.
amin.

so der it is..
lega..
i dont want to talk or even mention about this ever.

and i dont care anything about others..
happy..im happy for em..
tapi kalaw nak tunggang tebalik ke..sukatila..
al im concern is..
-my family
-sha .mai..my 2 besties sampai mati..ta penah ade kawan macam dey both!...
-khairil azmi..
-azmi's family.
-and true friends..that i only know!

other than that..
friends. fulstop.

'bigg hugeee grin*

best-time!

saturday.
went out for karaoke with azmi's family.
@RedBox, the Curve
arrived a bit late..
and super hungry..
so room no.2 it is..sgt VIP ye itu room..
with PS2 games to play..
and makan macam2..
sampai2 abg ajim oredy ordered us chicken chop..
plus other jugak..
teriyaki rice somthing somthing..
noodle in somthing soup..
big huge gigantic prawns with some sauce..i think..
and macam2 ntah..

kak iera and abg ijoy arrived a bit late..as they have company's family day..
i wasnt quite singing..but there's a song..which ktorng sang ramai2..but tbe2 sme mcm slowed down..and sme pandang me!...abg ajim jahat!..he asked jiji and kak iera to diam so ble dgr my voice nyanyi..eeee!
anyway...sme abg ajim banje..!
yeeepie!..thank u abg ajim!

so after karaoke..we went for solat at ikano..
and decided to have superlate lunch @ Waroeng Penyet..

and guess what?
i met Izzat...my ex-bf..
soo long havent seen him..he was with his gf..wanie..'hello waniee!' so good to see them...=)
he was asking fo azmi but azmi,abg ajim n jiji went to the pet safari (animal peoples...duh)..so too bad i couldnt introduce azmi to izzat..

so anyway..we had lunch..sme org had nasi with ayam penyet..except me!..i had bakso..with soda gembira..yup its F&N merah plus susu pekat..whuteverr~..i thot it should be something nice..wuwu..jiji jahat kate sedap..and suroh sme org rase..hahha!..abah asked me to order somthng else..

abg ijoy n kak iera..they are such a sweet couple..sgt kiyot the way they are with each other..heheh~

mama n abah

abah.abg ajim.jiji

woops..me!

done!

i wanted to go to the career fair..
planning with wina earlier dat day..
tp keluar karaoke pon da lambat..
makan lagi..last2..ehmm..
sorryyy wina...wuwuwu~..
by the time sy sampai pon..da habes..wuwuuw~
but i really wanna go..but sme pon lost track of time..=(

so, instead..we jalan2 at The Streets..
well actually i walked with mama..tgk2 barang..earings..bangles..brooches..
abah, emi duduk je at a corner..
kak iera and abg ijoy jalan mane ntah..shopping some stuff..
jiji went and met aida (aida was happento be there with her segi friends)
abg ajim suda pegi bertemu gadisnya (oopsy..!..eheh)

kemudian selesai bershopping..
sme pon pulang...

i had a great time..
great meal.! great day..!

=)).